Lucky enough

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There are so many things in life that I wish were just a little better.  Life is often not what we imagined it would be.  By this time I was supposed to filthy stinkin’ rich and living the high life.  On a more basal level I’d like to have less weight on this old body, I’d like to be an uber successful food photographer, I’d hope for some better things for some of my children, I want a bigger kitchen, a gardener and a maid.  I wish that I didn’t have any debt and had invested better.  I want more time, time to take care of that ‘to do’ list (or enough money to pay someone else to it), time to spend visiting family and friends…time, money and being a hot mama grandma.  Yep that’s what I want.

The reality of life is so much different than what we think it should be.  Life is work, hard work.  Relationships take work, having a nice home takes work, having time takes work.  

Nothing comes without work.

Things weigh heavy on the shoulders.

Then we go to the cabin, off the grid, to our little place.  A wood fire burning in the stove and an apple tart cooking in the little camp propane stove. The snow falls from a grey sky, painting the trees and ground with a white wonder.

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I sit at my favorite kitchen table (that I acquired from an antique market from Belgium).  I sit in an old hickory chair from the original Yellowstone Lodge with chair pads made by my father in law.  I sip on a glass of boxed wine. I smell the ultimate incense of wood and cinnamon apples, looking into a wonderland devoid of society.  No internet, no phones…just a soothing rumbling of a generator providing power for me.

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Right now I feel like the luckiest person in the world.  I have a place, a getaway, a retreat.  A small piece of the great big world that we call ours.  And suddenly all those things that I had hoped and wished were better or different get tucked away.

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I sit around and read and read.  Terry Pratchet amuses me, I devour the Foxfire books.  I read the cookbooks that my in laws gave us. The old time cooking, recipes in paragraph format (last publishing in 1969).  A life where I could just stare out my window and watch the snow fall and feel the weight of life upon these shoulders disappear.

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I begin to enjoy a different life.  One where I get up and cook eggs and bacon and drink scads of coffee all day, and take a nap if I was so inclined.

Enjoy a foot licking…and take out of focus pictures…

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Rewire old lamps with McGyver (lamps made before I was born kind of old)

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It’s difficult to describe the mental change that happens when you get away…really away.  I imagine that I  could write a novel, or picture myself as the ultimate mountain woman.  Hunt for food, prep it and cook it.  Write a novel about being the ultimate mountain woman with amazing photos to go with it.  I find myself ready to blaze the trails, the new old woman, back to the roots.

Or maybe just go for a walk…

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I enjoy these thoughts immensely.  But reality has a way of creeping in.  I don’t have a washer or dryer.  An entire winter up here means relying on our dry food hoard…the fresh will run out and we only have an under the counter fridge which holds about 2 weeks worth.  I don’t have running water, no shower (although McGyver enjoys washing my hair in the sink just because he gets to see my boobies)!  Soon I’d start to see how grey my hair really is. I’d have to pluck my own eyebrows and trim my own hair.  I would end up reading everything I had and rereading it a 1000 times, well that just makes it seem like studying.  

My box of wine will run dry.  Noooooo!!!!!!

It will be colder than this.

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Melting snow would be how we got all our water.

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Please note that the camp oven warns you not to use it inside…also note above temperature.  I’ll take my chances thank you very much.

There will be more snow and even with chains, we wouldn’t make it down the mountain (we tried it once, read about that harrowing experience here, it’s a waaay long post but worth a read if you want to sit on the edge of your seat).

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And there’s chopping wood and stoking the fire in the middle of the night.

Hell, it’s a lot of work up here.

Nothing comes without work.

I push those thoughts from my mind and remind myself it’s a week, enjoy the week you have.  Enjoy the idea of being the next great mountain novel writing woman…it’s okay.  It’s like talking about how you’ll spend the lottery money you’ll never win.  This is a place to relax, read, nap, fantasize. It has it’s place, this place that takes reality away and replaces it with one devoid of all the worries of the other life.

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And I remind myself…

If you have a cabin in Montana, you’re lucky enough!

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21 Responses to Lucky enough

  1. Debra November 14, 2012 at 7:17 pm #

    What a wonderful post. You put it all in perspective. You are a lucky woman. It is funny how getting away feeds the soul. One of the best vacations ever was renting a house at a nearby lake. I took tons of outfits and even more shoes. We never left the premises and I didn’t wear a pair of shoes the entire time. We read, star-gazed, cooked out, read some more, lounged about, talked. It was perfect. Yes, if you are lucky enough to have a cabin in Montana, you need to count your blessings.

    • Giggles November 15, 2012 at 3:33 pm #

      Once you get away and truly relax, you wonder why don’t I do this more often? It definitely does feed the soul.

  2. Janet November 14, 2012 at 7:41 pm #


    • Giggles November 15, 2012 at 3:34 pm #

      Thank You.

  3. Gloria Richards November 14, 2012 at 10:08 pm #

    Nice. Enjoy the simplicity and wallow in the gentleness of time well spent my friend.

    • Giggles November 15, 2012 at 3:35 pm #

      I love how you phrased that “wallow in the gentleness of time well spent”. Very poetic.

  4. CJ at Food Stories November 15, 2012 at 8:12 am #

    I’m so jealous … Your pictures paint such a relaxing environment 🙂

  5. Karen November 15, 2012 at 9:48 am #

    What a beautiful place to get away… sounds like Heaven!

    • Giggles November 15, 2012 at 3:31 pm #

      Heaven indeed! Certainly as close as I’ll ever get to it 😉

  6. Alycia November 15, 2012 at 12:20 pm #

    You are so creative in the way you lay out story telling & gifted in the picture you take. I t will be nice to meet up with you & your husband.

    • Giggles November 15, 2012 at 3:31 pm #

      Alycia, its time we met since we are practically neighbors. Also the next GF Camera Club meeting is at the Ursaline Center at 7:30 pm on Dec 13th. It’ll be my first time, we should do together.

      • Alycia November 16, 2012 at 10:33 am #

        Yes we should……. if my memerory file would compute right you did show my husband & I where you live ……… when we were out looking for houses; but that file doesn’t want to open! That would be really exciting for me to go to the GF Camera Club.

  7. Janice November 15, 2012 at 1:01 pm #

    And that’s what it’s all about–this attitude called Thanksgiving and gratitude. If we’re lucky we remember, as you did here, to not relegate this attitude to just one day or one week but to a place and a time a feeling a way of life. Just living anywhere in Montana is “lucky enough.”

    • Giggles November 15, 2012 at 3:28 pm #

      Janice, I agree that living anywhere in Montana is lucky enough but only to those who take the time to appreciate it.

  8. Alycia November 16, 2012 at 10:49 am #

    Is there any reason why I received this link 5 times in my e-mail

    • Giggles November 18, 2012 at 3:40 pm #

      Alycia, I don’t know why you would? I’ll look to make sure you’re only subscribed once and not accidentally more 😉

  9. Kitchen Butterfly November 21, 2012 at 4:52 pm #

    Well said, well written and heartfelt Rhonda. I love being able to truly ‘get away’. It has a way of refocusing and renvigorating you! A week sounds right, without running water and laundry deices :-). Have a wonderful thanksgiving.

  10. Kita November 25, 2012 at 1:01 pm #

    Wont lie – TOTALLY FREAKIN JEALOUS. I would love to have a getaway.

    OK, put the green monster away and I agree with your post. Even though a pretend cabin in the woods makes my dreamland filled with glee, I have all that I need. I am happy. And I am working towards those things I want. Now will someone beat this into my BF? 😉

    • Giggles November 25, 2012 at 9:57 pm #

      Kita, sometimes we have all that we need…but all that we want…so illusive. But it’s those things that we want that keeps us from settling for just getting by with what we need. If I had left it to McGyver we would have a shack in the woods, but my wants out weighed his needs and we came to a marvelous compromise! Because “you can’t always get what you want, but if you try sometimes, you get what you need” sorry a Rolling Stones moment took me over. I needed comfort and he needed a get away…and now we have both.

  11. Mcgyver November 25, 2012 at 9:41 pm #

    Boy, do I have to get that slash pile cleared from the front of the cabin!

    • Giggles November 25, 2012 at 9:50 pm #

      Yes you do dear, it would make my pictures look oh so much better 🙂